i dont care anymore if i suck at designing. lately i’ve been really upset with my work at school and pissed b/c i feel like idk what i’m doing and maybe i went back to school with the wrong major, or i’ve wasted time, etc etc etc.

Just because i’m graduating doesnt mean i have to be super at it all. i can still learn after i’m done with school. and even if i dont become the best, i am good at enough other things that we will find a way to pay our bills and do what we want and move to japan, or paris, or australia, or canada, or wherever!

and i’m learning web design now and i think i’ll be better at that than what i’m being asked to do now in most of my classes.

so, i’m over it. i’ll put up my shitty thumbnails, or roughs, but i will do my best to remember this and not be so upset when it looks like a 3 year old’s work next to all the other work

i can do this. i just have 2 months left. then i can do whatever i want. i wont be stuck spending shitty 19 hours a week at school on top of working all the rest of the time! i can explore whatever i want in terms of designing work. i can intern for real, i can do side work for people, whatev!

maybe now i’ll make some cupcakes for class tomorrow. and maybe work. MAYBE

so i dont aspire to work at a large agency, so what? it doesnt mean i’m below anyone who does! i don’t like working for large corporations anyway. office politics can suck it if you ask me.